Rough Go

A little while ago I was diagnosed as having clinical depression. Something I can't just square my shoulders & deal with the way I'm used to dealing with everything else in my life. Clnical depresion means my brain is sick in essence. (quit laughing!!!!)

Tonight is a bad night.

I have no idea why this night. nothing happened to set it off or anything like that. But I feel so bloody alone and so lost. I feel like I am unworthy of love and sympathy unless there is something icky going on, but then when something bad IS going on I start to feel like I'm whining. I feel so isolated sometimes. I know I should feel greatful, blesed, lucky eben.

I have a gorgeous & charming 3-year old, I have friends who care about my greatly (though sadly they are many miles away), I have a roof over my head, some food in the house, clothes for my son & I, a stable & reliable job ...

But I feel sad. I feel like bawling, but there's another part of my brqin that scolds me for feelign that way.

I feel like I'm constantly at war with myself. Second-guessing myself, criticizing myself, never gentle or kind to myself.

I can't muster the energy to get out much & sometimes answering e-mail seems a chore. I push myself to do these things anyways & sometimes it helps for a while & other times it makes not even a dent.

It's like living in a thick fog.

*SIGH*

Charlie Brown Tree

Urban Outfitters is selling the sad little tree for $24.00. I thnk I could manage to create my own for under $5!

Mr. Suicide Bathtub Plug

I personally think he needs little cement blocks on his feet too .....

Giant Pink Bunny

This is the work of a Viennese art group called Gelatin.

The bunny is 200 feet long -- a toy rabbit "knitted by dozens of grannies out of pink wool". The toy is expected to stay there, on the side of this 5,000 foot high mountain (Colletto Fava in northern Italy's Piedmont region) for 20 years, until 2025.

Gelatin says it was "knitted by dozens of grannies out of pink wool".

Group member Wolfgang Gantner said: "It's supposed to make you feel small, like Gulliver. You walk around it and you can't help but smile."

I say "huh?"

iPod Flea

Great spoof video!

iPod Wireless Headphones

MicroMedia paper

This is so cool! The MicroMedia player looks and feels like a regular snapshot you'd send in the mail, but there are VCR-like controls that play the embedded media. Video and audio could be accessed by techno-phobes. The backside of the sheet could hold a handwritten note, a nice touch for anyone who longs for the old days of postcards and letters.

Perfect for sending to grandparents!

Origami Boulder

In the words of the seller:
"YOU BUY WADDED UP PAPER NOW!!!!"

What Lies Beneath

It never before occurred to me to peek behind paintings or mirrors in hotel rooms. Secret Wall Tatoo

Child Monitor

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ionKids has developed a child monitoring system that consists of two components, a tamper-proof bracelet worn by the child, and a base unit that allows a parent to monitor the child's location.

The cool looking bracelet, (called a Wristag) is worn by the child,and is both water and tamper resistant and will need a special key to be taken off of the child’s wrist. It also has sensors that can detect the child’s skin and can perceive whether the gap between the skin and the device is getting larger, in which case it will set off an alarm, both on the wristag and on the base unit. The base unit, on the other hand, is kept by the parent, who can monitor up to four children simultaneously.

Every few seconds, ionTechnology™ simultaneously changes the transmission frequency, Wristag ID and corresponding information in the Base Unit, significantly reducing the chances that a third party can scan or monitor a child's Wristag.

The Escape Artist

Well, my toddler took a few years off my life on the weekend!

I was on the computer & he was watching tv & he told me he'd be "right back!" I didn't think anything of it. Just as I hit "send" on the e-mail I'd been typing, I heard him call my name & he sounded distant. I figured he'd crawled under the couch again & went looking for him. Well, I could not find him anywhere & he wouldn't respond to my calling him.

I started to get that awful panicky feeling because somehow I knew he wasn't in the house. I'd locked the front door & it was still locked, so he couldn't have gone out that way. I hadn't thought he could open the back door & the yard is fenced in so I should have been able to see him if he was there. I looked there anyways & could'nt see him. Ran back inside & did a quick look again around the house, calling for him but by now I was sure he wasn't there.

Finally I went to the back door & called out to him to come get a muffin (one of his favourite snacks) hoping I'd at least get a response, and thank gooness I heard him call me!

The little BUGGER had got the back door open, crawled under the fence & hid there while I was calling him!

Lots of hugs & lots of scolding & a now always locked back door!

Big Mess

My little guy decided it would be fun to spread rolled oats all over the kitchen floor - at least he was willing to help clean-up!

CBC Radio | 50 Tracks | The List

CBC's list of the top 50 essential Canadian songs.

Easter Egg Hunt

Sampling
Originally uploaded by bluebunny.

My little guy stops to sample the chocolate! :)

Saturday Morning

It's been a long week! My toddler has not been sleeping well at night and I've been experimenting with the *perfect* level of coffee to cope - apparently seven cups in one day is a little too much!

Yesterday was expecially fun as whatever mad scientist is in charge of these things decided it would fun if ds spiked a fever only a week after his latest febrile convulsion. I was glad that the daycare was able to give him a dose of tylenol, but when that didn't budge his temperature, I raced over with heart in mouth to give him a second dose, and whisked him off to the walk-in. By the time the doctor saw us, the little guy's temperature had finally decided to come within sight of normal. BIG sigh of relief!

Ds was nice enough to actually sleep in until 7:30 this morning so I'm only on cup #2 of coffee. He's watching Shrek and I'm trying to untangle the dog from my current knitting project *rolleyes*.

7 inches longer

C'mon, you want know you want to take a peek!(video/x-ms-asf Object)

In Honour of International Women's Day

What use would women have of a university education?
Why should women want to keep their earnings for themselves?
Who would want to be treated by a woman doctor?

Play BBC's game by knocking on the doors of Victorian opportunity - but don't expect too much too soon!

Which Website Are You?

BBspot - Which Website Are You?


Appriopriately enough, I was blogger.com! What about you?

Numanuma

Words fail me - just watch it.

Jabberwocky Creature

I love this interpretation of what a slithy tove from the Lewis Carrol poem The Jabberwocky would look like!

Waiting for lunch

Toll Booth Experiments

A commuter decides to test the limits of tollbooths.

Scared

Caffeinated lip balm

I really, really, really want some Spazzstick!

Things I hate about my Flatmate

Things I hate about my Flatmate

Knitting trials

Hat Pattern Pic
Originally uploaded by bluebunny.

Here's a pic of the hat I attempted to start yesterday. I glanced over the pattern, figured I had it down & started in. Working on it at lunch time today I realized it was looking much pointer than I wanted it to.

Re-read the instructions. After frogging, re-starting, frogging again, re-reading instructions and finally checking in with my online group I finally figured out the problem ... turns out the method I learned for making a stitch isn't the common one & my method threw the whole pattern off! yeeesh!

So anyways, you can see my current CO there in the pic with the first row of the increases finally worked correctly!

Sink Faucet is all that remains

A sink faucet is the only thing left standing in the kitchen of James Abney's home after it was struck by a tornado associated with Hurricane Ivan last Fall.

Overpriced jar-opener

I find it hard to believe there is a big market for a $50 jar opener!

What a rack!

Tsunami Revelation

The waters that killed thousands have brought to life creations of the past.

Ananova - Gay penguins won't go straight

A German zoo's plans to tempt its gay penguins to go straight by importing more females has been declared a failure.

Monty & his chicken

monty and chicken
Originally uploaded by bluebunny.

Monty is pretending to be above playing with his knitted chicken, but really, he loves it!

Boing! Boing!

How irritating would those springs get after a while do you think?

Watermelon Carving

Wonder how long it took to carve this??

Heavy load

That's a lot of beer!

A Month of Softies

Nice collaboration & really interesting way of combinging technology & creativity! A Month of Softies

Apple hat

Apple hat again
Originally uploaded by bluebunny.

I love projects like this! This pattern took roughly 1 CSI and one Law & Order episode to knit up! :)

Duct tape bike

new kind of advertising

Hard up for cash? Maybe you should try this guy's strategy

Is it Art?

What do you think, does this guy's stuff qualify as art?

Life, the Universe and Everything

I'm so excited about the coming of The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy movie this summer! :)

Get the Drunk Home

How far towards home can get the drunk? - Move your mouse left or right to keep him on balance - post how far you get him below! Warning, highly addictive :)

Something's Not Quite Right Here

Hmm ... something's not quite right with this picture ......

Cat-A-Pult

Do cats really always land on their feet? With the Cat-A-Pult you can put the old saying to the test by flinging felines across the room. Just load one of the 1-3/8' (3.5 cm) plastic cats into the 5-3/4' (14.6 cm) plastic shooting device and pull the trigger! It's the best thing since cat juggling! 4 cats included.

Mike the Headless Chicken

Just go read the story!

Things We Will Never See On Star Trek

To give you a sample of what's on this list:

• Kirk meets a woman whom he's known for years but never had sex with.
• Sulu and Chekov get to do something interesting.
• The deflector shields hold through the duration of the battle.
• Picard ignores Troi and blows the enemy out of the sky, in spite of their "distressed" feelings.
• A crewman getting addicted to living out violent and or sexual fantasies on the holodeck and having to be forceably removed.

Dumb Computers

Computer scientist Arthur Boran developed amongst other unusual programs, one known as IDMBH - an acronym for I did my best, honest! Not only has IDMBH thus far failed to solve a single problem or even retrieve one piece of data, it has also generated an impressive variety of inane excuses, ranging from I DIDN'T KNOW YOU WANTED IT TODAY to THE DOG ERASED IT.

Stress Bunny!

I love it! A stress-ball in the shape of a bunny!

Stress Relief

So sick, it's funny! (ok, maybe I'm in need of a little help)

Washing Instructions

Copyleft

In a recent interview with C|net, Bill Gates made the statement "There are some new modern-day sort of communists who want to get rid of the incentive for musicians and moviemakers and software makers under various guises." As if money is the only plausible motivator for people.

There have been many wonderful responses to this interview - such as Dan Gilmor's and this article and this one on BoingBoing.

Con found living in Circuit City

No, it's not the plot to a B movie, it's a true story!

Effects of the Tusanami on the Earth Minor

Not meaning to sound insensitive about the tusanami's awful effects we have heard about, but I was a little surprised that I hadn't heard through my usual media sources more about the ramifications of the fact that the deadly tusanmi caused the earth to wobble & tilt a little. I'm not the most connected of people events-wise at times, so it could very well just be me.

At any rate, I did manage to hunt down this article which did offer a brief explanation of the apparently minimal effect of shortening days by a fraction of a second.

BBC NEWS: Looming pitfalls of work blogs

Interesting article about work blogs

What kind of coffee are you?

I am a Double espresso at three AM:

You are the tortured, nail-biting essence of coffee. You see visions. You could change the world if only you were up at the same time as everyone else. You have created a programming language that throws errors if the code is not written in iambic pentameter, and you are infuriated by the typos in the new edition of Ulysses. You practice sarcasm as a form of tantric sex, and your cats have doctorates. You believe in virgin sacrifice in a good cause.

Take the quiz for yourself

Blog of a Bookslut

The title alone of this blog was enough to grab me!

Spread the Love

The next time you want to tell someone how you *really* feel, send 'em this page!

Community Blog

Kill some time & meander through this unmoderated community blog!

Drinking in the Cold

How to enjoy a cold one without your hand going numb!

BBC's lst of foods to try at least once in yout life

How many can you cross off the list?

Cool Tools

This is a great site listing all kinds of useful, proven gadgets, thingies, widgets and whatnots!

Catch a fly!

How many can you catch?

Needies

My ex-mother-in-law is apparently very replaceable!