Vent ON
It's been just over two years now since separating. In that time I've met ONE guy for coffee. No dates.
My ex has had a girlfriend/lover for over nine months now. My best friend separated a year ago and has a boyfriend. My neighbour separated a few months ago & has dates coming out the ying-yang. Another neighbour has been seeing someone for a few months now. Another friend broke up with her boyfriend a couple weeks ago and has been asked out on a date by someone else. When the HELL is it MY turn??
I've been getting out a lot this year, doing lots of different things, been really working at putting my life back together & overall despite my battles with depression, I think I've been doing a good job of it. My friends say I'm smart, funny, good-looking & fun to be with. Are they blowing smoke up my ass? If not, where the hell are the guys who think that?
Tried tha dating site thing - and the only offers I got were NOT for dating!
I MISS having someone to talk to about everyday stuff, to share my hopes and dreams with, to philosophize with, to laugh with. I miss the intimacy of a big hug, a liongering kiss, a soft touch, arms around me at night. I miss "in" jokes and doing things for a man I care about. I miss feeling wanted, needed and respected in a role other than mother.
I want to meet someone, get to know them, date, explore each other's minds and bodies and souls ........
but I can't even get to the first part if feels like!
:(
rant OFF
2 comments:
A very touchy blog.But you know ,people are never happy for what they have at present.You long for a man who you can care about,I long for a small kid I can hold close to my heart.It is strange how emmotions work.
Oh Sharda, I'm sorry to hear of your longing .... I felt that for a long time & it took a while for my son to be conceived and I know I am lucky, thank you for reminding me ofcthat!
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